2012 was not an easy year for me. Although a lot of amazing things happened, I have a terrible habit of only remember the bad. I’d be setting myself up for failure if I made my New Years resolution, “Stop being so hard on myself”; it’s just who I am. But I can change the way that I think about life. How both the good– and the bad, have actually changed me for the better. If the series of events that was 2012 never happened I would not the person I am today.
For example, if I had never gotten rejected from New York University, cried for a week and then went to orientation for my current university (FYI this is my second university that I am attending), would I have ever discovered that I need to keep my ego in check? Or if I chose to stay home and sulk instead of hang out with my friends, would we be as close as we are today?
All of those questions have made me realize that the choices that were made for me, rather than by me, have tremendously shaped my life. As The Rolling Stones once said, “You can’t always get what you want/But if you try sometimes, you just might find/ You get what you need.” You have to work with what you have, rather than sitting around dwelling on the things that you don’t.
2013 is going to be the year of what I have.